arishalom
05-17-2005, 06:26 PM
Hi Everybody!!! I'm back from Springfield and boy what an emotional roller coaster. Very sad and tense, etc.
It was very difficult for me since everything about the death reminded me of how my grandfather suffered and died. I broke down in church Saturday evening when we walked in. I kept thinking about how much his father loved that church and I lost it. I felt like such an idiot when his stepmom whose lost her husband, for goodness sake, climbed over David to sit on the other side of me and hold me hand and calm me down. She was very anxious and kept biting my head off. There is so much on everyone's plate. We will fly out again over the Father's Day weekend for the memorial service, so I imagine that will be quite the emotional wringer as well. The important thing is that I be there for David.
Funny how David proposed. I was sitting in the car Saturday crying b/c I was overwhelmed about what I felt toward his father and having tried to deal with my feelings for a week by myself. David said, "I've had a lot to deal with too and unfortunately, I couldn't be everywhere to give everything to everyone. I feel horrible that I couldn't be there to comfort you." I said, "Yes, but you had support all week. I had to do it alone and I keep having to go through really hard things alone...yada yada yada....yes I was whining horribly....
He said, "Well you going through things alone stops now." And pulled out the ring box. The ring is a gorgeous 2 carat blue topaz with 8 diamond accents. Then I was crying again!!!
It was very difficult for me since everything about the death reminded me of how my grandfather suffered and died. I broke down in church Saturday evening when we walked in. I kept thinking about how much his father loved that church and I lost it. I felt like such an idiot when his stepmom whose lost her husband, for goodness sake, climbed over David to sit on the other side of me and hold me hand and calm me down. She was very anxious and kept biting my head off. There is so much on everyone's plate. We will fly out again over the Father's Day weekend for the memorial service, so I imagine that will be quite the emotional wringer as well. The important thing is that I be there for David.
Funny how David proposed. I was sitting in the car Saturday crying b/c I was overwhelmed about what I felt toward his father and having tried to deal with my feelings for a week by myself. David said, "I've had a lot to deal with too and unfortunately, I couldn't be everywhere to give everything to everyone. I feel horrible that I couldn't be there to comfort you." I said, "Yes, but you had support all week. I had to do it alone and I keep having to go through really hard things alone...yada yada yada....yes I was whining horribly....
He said, "Well you going through things alone stops now." And pulled out the ring box. The ring is a gorgeous 2 carat blue topaz with 8 diamond accents. Then I was crying again!!!